In order to be an expert at something, we have to go through the agonies, embarrassments and awkwardness of being a beginner.
As you get better, more time is spent in ease, comfort and confidence.
Many of us get blocked at the first challenge - "oh I don't have time for that anyway" or "it's just not one of those things I'm good at." instead of recognising actually "I hate that I don't know what I'm doing in every situation."
One way to help yourself stick with learning a new skill is to VALUE the trips and missteps. Each time you trip, that's one step closer to expertise. Each time you make a mis-step, you've learned something new to get yourself back on track. Each stumble is an opportunity to think about what you've learned and how you might approach that differently next time.
Each mistake gets you closer to that black belt.